Freedom From Bondage...

Sunsets...

2006-07-29T07:05:00.000-07:00

Grateful Today For:

Being present for those who need me.

A celebration of Tiger's life.

Reminders to live life to it's fullest, today.

The strength I get from leaning on God.

Sharing memories.

The opportunities that I get to make memories.

Being able to have my feelings. (Being able to cry...)

Mel's love, hope and queit strength.

The good friends that I send this list to.

Learning how to adapt to change.

Knowing that God will take care of me.

Getting Away From Myself...

2006-07-09T09:05:00.000-07:00

Grateful For:

The tenacity to hang in there, when I really don't want to.

The ability to do the next right thing...sometimes.

God's love and patience with me.

The solace that I find in prayer.

Six months of sobriety.

The capacity to love.

That no matter how I feel at any given time, someone in the program understands.

Going to the beach next weekend, come hell or high water.

Mel's perseverance...celebrating two years.

That I can wait for tomorrow to be better.

The willingness to try and be grateful.

People who don't let me hide out in isolation.

The reasoning to think it through.

Perseverance...

2006-06-19T20:36:00.000-07:00

Grateful For:

The strength to persevere until the good times come again.

Getting back my ability to think.

A memorable trip this past weekend.

Everyone who shows up at the noon meetings.

Feeling loved, safe and comfortable today.

Getting to go home from work early.

Making it through the storms safely this morning.

The cornerstone that God has become in my life.

Sam's friendship.

People who love me until I can love myself.

Mel's kind and loving heart.

Jerry's sobriety.

Up Before the Sun...

2006-06-12T03:42:00.000-07:00

Grateful For:

My job - being able to get up this morning feeling human.

Having the time this weekend to make special memories.

Snoring.

Feeling loved and safe.

Putting the spin on rumor mills.

God's love and the beauty in creation.

Peace and serenity.

All of the people who showed up to the meetings that I went to this week.

Resilience in the face of adversity.

Not taking a drink for the last 5 months and 12 days.

Seeing respect in the eyes of those I associate with for the person that I am becoming.

Sun, air and.....water!

Walking on the Rocks...

2006-06-11T07:56:00.000-07:00

Grateful For:

The willingness to wait for tomorrow.

Not giving up.

The ability to communicate.

Being afraid to love but doing it anyway.

Friends who care.

Overcoming obstacles, old tapes and lessons that hurt.

Watching love grow.

Precious times spent with those I care about.

Kind words when I really need them.

To quote MB...Time, Love and Tenderness.

God's grace to carry me through life.

Di's health.

Mel's quiet strength.

Away Too Long...

2006-05-26T03:22:00.000-07:00

Grateful For:

Making new friends and having a great time in Sommerville.

The wonderful new serenity and happiness that I know I can have now.

Creeping up on five months sober.

Beginning to be the person that I want to be.

Getting my license back after three years.

Knowing that God has the power to heal anything.

The black Ford Mustang convertible sitting in the driveway. :)

The opportunity to mend my finances after all these years.

Getting accolades from the boss at a job I'm beginning to love.

An interview (if it's meant to be) 2 blocks from home.

Healthy babies acclimating to their new home.

A new pool to lay by and soak up the sun.

A love that grows stronger every day.

All of the many blessings that God has given me in sobriety.

Doing this blog again after being away too long.

Castaway at Heart...

2006-05-02T20:24:00.000-07:00

Grateful For:

Picking up my 4-month chip tonight.

A new attitude about work.

Lake Somerville, jet skis and fishing boats in 11 days.

A love that grows every day.

Growing up.

The fact that I can turn it over as many times a day as I need to.

Learning to live in the moment...not the past or the future.

That I work with someone in recovery.

Being able to feel (even if I have to put up with the bad ones to have the good ones.)

The prospect of getting more than an hour's sleep tonight.

Not being overwhelmed by the fear today.

Gone Fishin'...

2006-04-30T10:39:00.000-07:00

Grateful For:

A prospective fishing trip in May.

The beauty of God's creation.

Starting to feel like my old self again...(the new old self :)

Getting to play games with friends at our house tonight.

A warm and loving relationship.

Being able to recognize old behavior...the first step to changing it.

Being told that I'm doing a good job and that they like me at work.

Being simpatico.

The courage to change the things that I don't like about myself.

The capacity to be grateful for the simple as well as the big things.

Learning how to not stir up drama when I have the peace and serenity.

The Storm Has Passed...

2006-04-28T19:53:00.000-07:00

Grateful For:

Getting out of the hospital today.

All of my heart tests coming out normal.

All of the people who love and care about me.

The love I have in my life today.

A queit and peaceful evening at home.

Learning to take care of myself.

A doctor that actually seemed to care.

The opportunity to start doing something about my health issues.

God helping me until I can help myself.

My prayers being heard last night.

Going to birthday night tomorrow - it's been too long without a meeting.

My Kryptonite...

2006-04-22T09:01:00.000-07:00

Grateful For:

The tools to combat the kryptonite.

Another Saturday morning sober.

A big event at Lambda tonight.

Sam's courage to take care of herself.

Cathy getting settled in with the fellowship in Wimberly.

Mel's experience, strength and hope.

Living in the moment.

Getting better at my job every week.

The ability to sit still with myself.

Music that speaks to my soul.

Learning to let myself make mistakes without having to condemn myself.

Learning to ask for help when I need it.

Lois.

Head in the Clouds...

2006-04-16T09:40:00.000-07:00

Grateful For:

The wisdom to know the difference.

Learning to take care of my needs.

The willingness to do whatever it takes.

Waking up for 106 days in a row without that awful feeling of not knowing and failure.

The gifts that God's given me in my life today.

Great friendships that I've formed in this program with the people that I send this list to.

Being able to appreciate the beauty in a gorgeous day.

Spending the afternoon with two good friends and the woman I love.

Allowing myself to enjoy the good times (getting the foot off the throat)

The courage to sit down like a grown-up professional tomorrow and have a meeting with my boss.

Taking the time to remember that the little things matter.

Awesome Displays...

2006-04-15T12:21:00.000-07:00

Grateful For:

Spontaneous displays of affection.

When lightning strikes.

God imparting to me serenity in the face of adversity.

Someone to share the good times with.

A good afternoon at work yesterday.

Lazy Saturdays.

Going to a meeting somewhere other than Lambda tonight.

Both of us getting to sleep in together tomorrow.

My treehouse.

My health.

My freedom.

A New Version...

2006-04-10T18:02:00.000-07:00

Grateful For:

Good places to hide the bodies...(just kidding.) ~(*_*)~

Seeing the black and white.

Just being happy.

My career taking off.

A sweet, wonderful woman to share my life with.

New beginnings.

Feeling the peace and serenity.

A great therapy session.

The long, hot bath that I'm about to take.

Learning to respect myself.

The wherewithal to stand up for myself.

On The Rocks...

2006-04-08T08:48:00.002-07:00

Grateful For:

Being willing to do something different when I want to drink.

God keeping me sober yesterday.

Someone I love learning to let me love them.

Cathy always being there for me to share her wisdom.

Mary Beth's friendship.

Knowing that as long as I stay willing I never have to feel that way again.

Learning how to handle situations that used to baffle me.

Smoothie King, hot coffee and Marlboro Lights.

Being able to be present for those that matter to me.

Forgiveness.

Not forgetting the last drunk.

Plum Tuckered Out...

2006-04-05T18:50:00.000-07:00

Grateful For:

Not being in trouble at work today.

The capacity to be honest with my employer.

Knowing when I'm overwhelmed and need to take care of myself.

Not taking myself or others too seriously.

Knowing when to drop it.

Learning to control my anger.

Letting myself slow down.

A peaceful end to a long day.

Conducting myself with honor.

Knowing that love is what really matters.

The courage to keep trying, even when I screw up.

Storms on the Horizon...

2006-04-04T12:49:00.000-07:00

Grateful For:

That the storms always pass.

How safe I feel at the noon meetings.

Being able to share honestly about what's going on with me.

That I stayed sober last night.

That I don't have to do it perfect to keep trying.

Being loved even when I don't feel like I deserve it.

The unconditional love of animals.

That I am able to make ends meet right now.

That I have hope today...and I will as long as I stay sober.

Sappy love songs.

Closure.

Amazing Grace...

2006-04-02T09:14:00.000-07:00

Grateful For:

Sam's eloquence and honesty.

Cathy's place in my life.

Picking up my three month chip.

The strength that I find in God.

Indifference.

Little Angie's genuine greetings.

Another great Saturday night.

The beauty to be found in daily life...if we just take time to look.

The prospect of another new sponsor.

Living in the solution.

Being able to say that I love my life today...

Without a Paddle...

2006-04-01T06:06:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Three months today without a drink or a drug.

Good conversation with a great friend over Starbucks.

Communication in the face of disagreements.

My weekend being here.

Calvin Klien shirts, Levi's jeans and harness boots...

That Cathy is on her way to H-Town as I type this.

Getting to hear Sam's story tonight.

God being with me through the hard times.

The promise of a new day.

The butterflies swarming again.

Getting a lot done at work yesterday.

Pussy Control

2006-03-30T19:03:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Staying home with my Babies tonight

Having optimism

Feeling taken care of by God.

Talks with Cathy that put me back on the right path.

A really greasy, cheesy pizza with Jalapenos.
Which brings us to...Rolaids.

A wonderful late night last night.

The ability to smile from the heart again.

Knowing that I will always be able to find another job if this isn't the right one.

A new family member that I've yet to meet.

The capacity to love without holding back.

Mel's continuing support and love. (What a cheering section!)

Must Be Doing Something Right...

2006-03-28T20:15:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Understanding my job better every day.

Mel to come home to.

God's gift of courage and serenity.

Sam's courage to tell her story.

Not having to be afraid of tomorrow.

Wanting to live life to it's fullest...caring.

Another day sober.

Making it through the first half of the week.

Terry's sense of humor.

The ability to shrug off the opinions of others.

Loving my life today.

No Explantion

2006-03-26T15:28:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Feeling better today than I have in several days.

Hitting a few jackpots...(and giving them back.)

A fun road trip.

A great dinner with a great friend.

A few hours left of my weekend.

The importance of God in my life.

The persistence that kept me coming back to AA.

Learning to have fun in sobriety.

Being there for those I love when they need me...(truly a gift of sobriety.)

The prospect of meeting with a new sponsor this week.

Getting to spend time with Cathy next weekend.

Getting to see Sam tell her story next weekend.

Mary Beth's caring emails.

Livin' in Fast Forward...

2006-03-24T21:19:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Pictures to match my mood.

Getting back on all my meds.

Getting a new sponsor tonight.

The willingness to something different.

The people in my life that I send this list to...

That I get to catch up on my sleep tomorrow.

That tomorrow I can start the day with a new attitude.

That I get to see Sam pick up her chip tomorrow.

Mel's sensitivity.

That I know Cathy will always be there.

Sink or Swim...

2006-03-22T19:15:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Not sinking at work today.

Plans to go out of town this weekend.

Mel's sense of humor.

The spirit of the wolf...(courage)

Creeping up on three months sober.

An anniversary tomorrow.

The power of prayer.

Getting past my fears to life's accomplishments.

Gaining perspective over my feelings of inadequacy.

Not having to create chaos.

Growing up.

Manic Monday...

2006-03-20T20:33:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Getting a lot done at work today.

Learning more every day.

A new determination to stay sober.

The ability to shrug off the small-mindedness of others.

A good beginner's meeting tonight.

The ability to start my day over at any time.

Being in love with a wonderful woman.

Unwinding from the day over a peaceful dinner at Hollywood.

Being home with my babies.

Surviving another Monday.

Learning what I don't want from other people.

Need a Meeting...

2006-03-18T06:11:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Another day sober.

God being with me last night.

A cop without a chip on her shoulder.

Getting the window fixed today.

The car being safe this week.

A Saturday night live speaker meeting tonight that I really need.

Being able to wear nothing but jeans, boots and shorts for two days.

Taking life one day at a time.

The ability to talk to God through prayer.

Lambda to run to when I don't know where else to go.

Just Another Day...

2006-03-16T16:16:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Finding the time to do this list again after several crazy days.

That there are places, (Australia), as beautiful as this that I will get to see one day.

Sam being there when I need a friend.

Mel's support and love when I'm reeling from the day.

Wise, brave desicions on the part of those I care for.

The peace that I find in "Giving it to God".

A job that I'm damned good at already.

Knowing when I've been too long without a meeting.

Knowing when to leave well enough alone...

Having the fear fade enough that I can function.

Watching myself and others grow up in this program.

Monday Again...

2006-03-12T20:07:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Another day sober.

Sam's phone calls.

The opportunity to live rather than merely exist.

Knowing that I can make it through anything sober if I rely on God.

The ability to feel the serenity in certain moments.

The capacity to love.

The wisdom to know when to change the things that no longer work.

Knowing that there is nothing to fear but fear itself, just False Events Appearing Real...

Not having to check out even if I want to.

A lazy Sunday spent being myself.

Too Cool... ;)

2006-03-11T08:03:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Lazy Saturday mornings.

That I have a job to go back to on Monday.

A modicum of self-esteem.

The willingness to do the next right thing.

That there are meetings at places other than Lambda.

Living in the solution instead of the problem.

That I realize that I need to give back by helping others.

That I can stop and connect with God anytime that I'm willing to.

That I get everything that I need in AA - if I reach out for it.

Mel's perseverence in the face of adversity.

That I don't have to drink today or feel that way ever again.

Eye of the Storm...

2006-03-10T20:22:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Peaceful times in between life's lessons.

Keeping my sense of humor.

Never giving up on sobriety.

The meaning that I see in the life that God intends for me...if I'll just turn it over.

Knowing how to ask for help.

Time healing all wounds.

Forgiveness.

The tenacity to trudge the road...

Not taking God's gifts for granted anymore.

The ability to communicate effectively.

Seeing the good in even the worst situations.

2006-03-09T20:36:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Making it to Friday at the new job.

Having the time this week to study my new software sets.

Knowing that I don't have to compromise.

Living in the moment.

My treehouse.

Not wanting to take a drink today.

Smoothie King and lunchtime phone calls.

Not holding back.

Not forgetting where alcohol took me.

Conditioner.

The lack of Drama in my life today.

2006-03-08T04:32:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Having to get up and go to work every day.

That Saturday I can sleep in!!!!!! (Never hurts to plan ahead!)

Getting used to a new routine.

That I have some self-confidence now.

The option to see things in a positive light instead of a negative one - that I know it's a choice.

Feeling good again.

Good, strong coffee and time this morning to write this gratitude list.

That I seem to get along with all of the people that I'm working with.

Mel's continuted votes of confidence.

The peace that I get from turning it over and asking God to adjust me to His will.

That I have enough patience to drive from Jersey Village to downtown at 7am without going postal!

2006-03-06T20:06:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

A great first day at my job.

Having faith in myself.

The peace, composure and guidance that God imparts to me.

Serene, quiet evenings curled up on the sofa with someone I love.

That I can still think - despite all of the obliterated brain cells.

Having a place to run to in the burbs.

The capacity to walk away from drama - not having to "engage"...

Not having forgotton how to be professional.

That I can be myself and others will still love me.

That everything I do is not as rooted in fear as it used to be.

That I will be able to catch up my bills again soon.

2006-03-05T09:55:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Having a God to take away my fears.

Mel's faith.

Knowing that no matter what happens I will always have God's love.

That I can be excited and anxious at the same time about the new job that I start tomorrow.

My babies.

My home.

My freedom.

That I can pause when I need serenity and pray.

That I can start the day over at any time.

Cathy's support.

Sam's friendship.

2006-03-04T09:22:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Watching good friends grow up in the program and celebrate thier milestones.

Picking up a two month chip on Wednesday...one that I earned.

Having the ability to take a compliment (sometimes) without shooting it down.

Being able to turn over to God the things that I am afraid about.

Having serenity to accept things that I can't change.

Messages that make me smile.

Being present enough to have a connection with those that I love.

Being able to stand up for myself and tell someone if they cross my boundries.

The respect that I'm beginning to have for myself.

The fabulous tan I have now that the burn is fading... :)

Growing up. (Even if it's in public and painful sometimes.)

2006-03-03T07:05:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Precious times spent making memories.

Beautiful days and long nights.

The courage to change bad habits and alter old patterns.

The chance to become a person that I respect.

Great seats at an awesome concert last night.

A crowd that I could be myself in public in and be comfortable.

The peace and comfort that I find from the roaring of the waves and the ocean breeze.

Feeling the presence of God in all that I do.

Being closer now than I have ever been to becoming the person that God wants me to be.

Long lingering stares.

The ability to live in the moment and not miss a thing - something I could never do if I were drinking...

2006-03-02T15:24:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

A beautiful day at the beach.

Going to the Melissa concert tonight.

Getting closer every day to someone I care about.

Signing the contract for my new job.

That I can communicate amicably with my family.

Not jumping into drama - even when I want to.

Vinegar and aloe vera for this sunburn.

That I remembered to get on my knees this morning and start the day off right.

Being able to recognize God's will versus mine sometimes.

Moving past old issues.

Starbucks and Marlboros...

2006-02-28T14:59:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Starting my new job on the 6th.

Finding out that I can be stronger than I think.

Finding strength in God.

The serenity that I get from turning things over.

That I can stay sober by taking actions - even when I don't want to.

That I can be there for other people today.

That I can be honest with others about how I feel.

The courage to get things done that I could never accomplish while drinking.

That I'm not as afraid of people as I used to be.

That I'm winning at dominos again... :)

Cathy...(thanks for being there.)

That I know I don't have to be so hard on myself anymore...

2006-02-27T15:04:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Getting through days like this sober.

A God that will see me through anything.

Mel's intuition and love.

That the desire to drink isn't present now.

Knowing I have a place to run to in Lambda.

Knowing that the next moment will be different when I feel like my skin is on wrongside out...

The chance to be a better woman tomorrow.

Stars and butterflies...

Country and Blues to let my feelings out.

Having a sponsor that I can talk to about anything.

Learning to take care of my health.

That I have someone who loves me at times I can't love myself.

2006-02-26T21:03:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Another day of sobriety.

That prayer has become a part of my daily life.

Snuggling.

Knowing that I can make it through anything sober if I'm willing to take certain actions.

The capacity to be honest.

Finding out my start date tomorrow.

The ability to stay in my skin even if I'm uncomfortable.

Being able to apologize when I'm wrong.

People who stand up for their beliefs and aren't afraid to speak thier mind.

Humility.

Taking the time to do things right.

2006-02-25T06:53:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Another day sober.

The comforting peace that I find in prayer.

A great evening with friends in Montrose.

Feeling healthy again.

A great job.

My home.

Learning how to feel.

Making memories.

Expressions through music.

God's unconditional love.

Innocence.

2006-02-23T20:11:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Getting a better job today than I have ever had.

Others who believe in me.

A great dinner with friends at Niko's Niko's.

My aweome sponsor.

A beautiful spring day in February.

Mary Beth.

All of the wonderful gifts that I've gotten from sobriety.

God's love.

The ease of living sober.

The ability to have a healthy relationship.

A bright future.

2006-02-22T21:30:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Another beautiful night.

Being able to share honestly about what's troubling me.

Rain on the windows...

Having faith and hope today.

Another interview Friday.

The willingness to do whatever it takes.

Sam.

Being in love.

Feeling that I deserve happiness.

The power of prayer.

The ability to feel compassion for others less fortunate.

2006-02-21T10:07:00.000-08:00

Grateful for:

Lazy mornings.

Being able to help others.

Being able to sleep peacefully through the night.

Loving again.

The peace I get from prayer.

God's protection.

Learning to love myself.

New beginnings.

Being able to take advantage of good opportunities.

Not feeling alone anymore (most of the time.)

The ability to express myself without fear of rejection.

2006-02-20T16:46:00.000-08:00

Grateful for:

Serenity in the face of adversity.

Others who love me until I can love myself.

Another Sunday with friends.

Wakeup calls.

Being able to appreciate every moment.

Living sober.

More good prospects today.

Appreciative remarks from those receiving this gratitude list.

Crying over sad movies...(shhh - it's a secret!)

Having faith that God is with me and hears my prayers.

Romance.

2006-02-18T08:08:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Making it through another day (and night) sober.

A beautiful, relaxing evening.

That God provides for all my needs.

The ability to share honestly on a group level.

The willingness to do whatever it takes to stay sober.

Lazy weekend mornings.

That I still have a measure of intelligence - despite all I've done.

Strong coffee and Marlboro Lights... :)

Making new memories.

Long conversations with good friends.

Cotton...

2006-02-17T10:27:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

The ability to appreciate beauty.

A good night's rest.

Feeling worthy of happiness.

Quiet times spent talking to God and learning to listen.

The capacity for empathy and compassion.

Hugs.

Feeling like a teenager again.

Feeling loved and cared about.

Two excellent prospects this morning.

Being able to deal with feeling of unease without getting lost in them.

Having faith that everything will work out exactly like it's supposed to...

2006-02-16T20:11:00.000-08:00

Grateful For:

Seeing two people who slipped make it back.

That I can recognize it when I'm being judgemental.

The ability to interact with my family without regressing...

Not having to let the negativity take over.

The capacity to love without reservation.

That I always have what I need.

Mel.

Cathy.

God's gift of serenity.

Knowing that as long as I don't drink I have the hope of a promising tomorrow.

Miracles.

2006-02-15T15:46:00.000-08:00

Grateful for:

Another day of sobriety.

The smell of the storm on the breeze that's blowing in.

A Valentine's day to remember.

Learning that old hurts ease more with every day I'm sober.

Returning a lost puppy to her owners.

That I finally know that no excuse is good enough to drink.

The courage to change.

Smiles from the heart.

Soul sisters.

Knowing that I don't have to do it perfect to do it at all...

Forgiveness.

2006-02-14T12:35:00.000-08:00

Grateful for:

A beautiful Valentine's Day morning.
A very good 12:15 meeting.
Seeing an old friend.
The ability to act rather than react.
Forgiveness.
The number of responses that I've gotten in my job search.
Butterflies.
A good book to curl up with.
Just being ok.
God's loving kindness.

2006-02-13T06:47:00.000-08:00

Grateful for:

Another day of sobriety.

The time to enjoy special moments.

Affection.

That God is always present in my life...if I invite him in.

The ability to embrace change.

The friendships that I have formed in AA.

Smiling brown eyes.

Letting go of the old negativity and striving for positive thinking.

Having a passion for life.

Having ears.

2006-02-12T07:43:00.000-08:00

Grateful for:

My babies... (2 cats)

My treehouse.

A nice afternoon spent with family.

Knowing when to apologize and admit I was wrong.

The ability to conduct myself honorably.

I don't have to live that way anymore.

The ability to have compassion for those who step on my toes.

A relationship that's loving and healthy.

That old memories don't hurt as much as they used to...

The capacity to love.

2006-02-11T05:46:00.000-08:00

Grateful today for:
That I have no desire to drink today.
The capacity to have compassion for those less fortunate.
Knowing that God will do for me what I can't do.
Lambda...(even though I down on occaision)
Knowing that what others think of me isn't my business.
No longer having to be insecure.
The hope of a brighter tomorrow.
Love.
Not having to sabotage happiness.
A newfound sense of serenity and contentment.

2006-02-10T10:51:00.000-08:00

Today I'm Grateful for:
Getting enough rest last night.
The ability to have perspective when things don't go as planned.
God's peace, composure and guidance.
The resources for the things that I need.
The third step.
Having faith, hope and love in my life.
Knowing that God has my best interests at heart.
Coffee and cigarettes.
Someone very special who cares about me.
The ability to pause when agitated.
Being happy and feeling like I deserve it...

2006-02-09T05:49:00.000-08:00

Grateful today for:
Waking up with a smile.
Laughter.
Hope.
Caring about my future.
Terry.
Lambda.
My health.
Friends who care about me.
The ability to open my heart.
Good conversation.
Faith that God will take care of me.
The willingness to take action.

2006-02-08T21:54:00.000-08:00

Grateful today for:
Knowing God will take care of me.
Being peaceful and not sabotaging it.
Being able to love.
Being willing to do the next right thing.
Two job interviews for better opportunities.
Feeling safe and loved with someone special.
Program friends to bounce my life events off of.
A sponsor that I love and respect.
Learning to care about myself.